21 years gone through

SISI HAHA, 20 years gone liao. everything set by god. included our fate. I am now 20 goin to 21 soon. But now, i dont have direction and i dont know which path i should go. Human couldnt predict what will happen 10 years later. Because we dont know what will happen tomorrow. Human life are valueble and precious. I was feel my deadlines coming to me soon. Dont know why. Time gone through too fast. example: START - END, 1 - 0, YES - NO, OPEN - CLOSE. Everything like lifecycle, "when we born then is the time for us to face death" Now i think, in real life we have to achieve some unforgettable award. People will remember you exist in this world. But i cant. Am i unique? until here, i am speechless. DOnt know what to say about me. feel away different from other people. Hope i will achieve something in the future.

后悔

今晚不能入睡，因为太多后悔的事情向我的记忆飘过。当我想起他们的照片。只有背单帮我察干了我的眼泪。 我要的只是你在我身边。 我要回头已经来不及了。。。。。。。。

"Where is the Love?"

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love, the love, the love?

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead of spreading love we're spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
Now ask yourself

Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love?

Sing wit me y'all:
One world, one world (We only got)
One world, one world (That's all we got)
One world, one world
And something's wrong wit it (Yeah)
Something's wrong wit it (Yeah)
Something's wrong wit the wo-wo-world, yeah
We only got
(One world, one world)
That's all we got
(One world, one world)

Malaysia arent "SAFE" anymore.

"Violence" "Crime" "Kidnapping" these 3 words i mention are existing in my country which is "Malaysia". People think, Malaysia is a wonderful place for them. But for me the answer "Negative". Obviously you can read the newspaper, "Violence" "Crime" "Kidnapping" these 3 words for sure come out from the newspaper. The Mayan Calender, predicted 2012 DECEMBER 21. The Earth will having a big problem, which are "Global disaster". These are cause by Human Being. Get back to this topic again. "Malaysia arent "SAFE" anymore" I know and you know as well. "Life = Risk". I just hope the world become better. Wanna stop here. Nothing much can comment or complain.

Do i enjoy my life?

Life is set by God as i believe, we couldnt change the fate. Do i enjoy my life well? I dont think so before this i can choose to head back Malaysia or remain in UK. But i choose to stay in UK. I hope i am on the right decision. While waiting for the visa approval. For me, i feel friend isnt forever so i that why i spend my time alone. In fact, jobless/ unemployment rates are keep increase this few month, i fed up to send my CV anymore, feel hopeless. Eventually, UK resident couldnt get jobs why me? What i mean was get a official jobs in UK, however i had a job in london which is Wok to Walk. Cook the foods everyday, feel tired. It is just to earn some money to make me survive. Family is so important for me so i put my family in the first place. Now, i am 21 with a degree holder but without experiences. Pointless. I am the people who dont know how to apprietiate chances. Lost the chances to get something important in my life. (.Secret.). Wanna stop here. Share my life with you next time.

"圣诞节"

我住的城巿從不下雪

記憶卻堆滿冷的感覺

思念的旺季　霓虹掃過喧嘩的街

把快樂趕得好遠

*落單的戀人最怕過節

只能獨自慶祝盡量喝醉

我愛過的人　沒有一個留在身邊

寂寞它陪我過夜

Merry Merry Christmas

Lonely Lonely Christmas

想祝福不知該給誰

愛被我們打了死結

Lonely Lonely Christmas

Merry Merry Christmas

寫了卡片能寄給誰

心碎的像街上的紙屑

電話不接　不要被人　發現我整夜都關在房間

狂歡的笑聲　聽來像哀悼的音樂

眼眶的淚　溫熱凍結　望著電視裡的無聊節目

癱在沙發上　變成沒知覺的植物